Tarot Pull

General for the rest of my week.  This card, upright means "Triumph, success, control over the forces of nature---thus triumph over ill health as well as money difficulties or enemies of any sort, including one's own lower animal passions.  This is a card of those who achieve greatness.  it may also indicate travel in comfort.  Mental and physical powers should lead to fulfillment."

Seems like quite a positive card.  Not sure what it really means for my week though.

Dreams from the night of the 25th and 24th

So last night, I dreamed that I was on an abandoned highway. I was stringing up a human corpse for all to see.  Flash to be driving past the same scene from below the highway. 

I pretty much chock this up to watching Battlefield: Los Angeles and playing RAGE yesterday.

The night before that was a bit strange though.

I had a dream where a female coworker was taking a shower.  I made it like I was in there looking for the trash to take it out, but though the shower curtain I could see her breasts, she was still wearing underwear.

Another dream I had was me being at work, Rob a coworker who was transferred to another store in reality was there in street clothing.  I remember putting pallets down near the end of a receiving dock and seeing though the cracks in the flooring the broken ones underneath.  As I was doing that, another pallet with more deil load went by.

That's all I remember.

Fail...

Ah well.  I made a sigil last night, and didn't dream at all.  Figured I would just put that out there.  Kinda disappointing really, that I don't remember anything.  Maybe tomorrow night. :-/

The purpose of it was "I am going to dream about my true form"

Dreams, Dreams everywhere!

Well.  Ill start with the one I JUST remembered.

I had a dream where I was banned from an IRC channel due to lack of activity.  Apparently someone else I know online was on it as well, Ihrida in this case.  I remember seeing typed "I think Ihrida and Lycaon are members of the other organization, I think they are spies."  Papi said "I like you Lycaon, but you have to go." then I was banned from the channel.

I also had a few other dreams.  One of which was me going outside with my brother, and me looking up at the pitch black sky.  "I think its snowing out." I could feel the cold drops of snow falling into my hair. 

I woke up and it is snowing in actuality.  Though I did hear on the news that it was supposed to.

Another dream I remember having was my Dad driving his car into a jughandle.  It is a way to turn around on a road without pulling a u-turn.  Pretty much a little side street leading up to a light to then take a left back onto the same road.  Someone was walking in front of my fathers car, so he got out and started telling them to get out of the way.  I think someone then hit dads car when he got out of it because thee guys were standing off to the side appraising the damage, while my father and this other guy kinda fought.

The other guy picked up a rock, and chucked it at my father, and I flew into a rage.  I got into the guys face, and I remember yelling "If you so much as lay one more hand on him I will fucking murder you."

The guy looked shocked, and then backed down a bit.  He went on about how he is usually not like that, and about how he was sorry.  He then went back to saying how the three guys worked for such and such a collision place, where someone I am acquainted with, David, works in reality.

We ended up going there, to find that Dave now apparently owns the place, and buys everything to get put into it.

Somehow this segways into there being lasers coming though the windows, like the ones you would find on firearms to help those who cannot aim get a better shot.  It seems like they are searching for a murder suspect...

I don't remember much else, regretfully.

Well...

I did say I wanted to dream about something different...

I was in a car with someone else driving.  I remember the car starting to swerve, and then the next thing I knew I was handing upside down, stairs under my head, the car flipped over.  I was seeing this from the third person persective, but I knew it to be myself.

Regretfully that is all I remember from last night.

Tarot Pull

I got the seven of cups.  The book says.  "Dreams, castles in the air, an imagination that has been working overtime.  The seeker's forces have been too scattered. Illusionary success. Selfish dissipation; deception."

Luin said that to her it represents nostalgia, I could see how that would work... but to me, Its like looking at possibilities, at everything that needs to be done, should be done, and getting no where, seeing the pitfalls, the gains, the losses... and being stuck in a rut.

*shrugs*

More work dreams

Just a short one, even though I slept from 10PM to about 9, though I think I woke up around 6, I just refused to get up.

I dreamed I was resocking a floor case at work, putting milk in it.  Even though I work for the Deli IRL.  I believe the next area was going to be swiss cheese, so it was like I was working for the dairy department instead.

That's all I can remember, though I know there was more when I had woken up around 6ish, but I didn't make any recordings or notes about it.

Dream from last night

This was bit of a strange dream...

My first reaction upon waking was "I had a dream where I interacted with a ghost." Followed by "I also dreamed I was spitting chickens in the Dairy cooler, and was talking to Brian. I got out before Kevin got in there, so I didn't get yelled at"

"I had a dream where there was a bunch of tiny blimps flying around, trying to destroy a city"

I also dreamed that I had attended some sort of party, I think with Kacie, one of my co-workers.  Kevin was playing the piano, I think one of the things I had put down in my dream was my digital voice recorder.

We somehow found ourselves outside, and Kacie saw something though the trees which frightened her.  I looked through the trees and saw something moving though it.  I think that is where I got the "I interacted with a ghost" part.  But upon looking though the brush I though it was nothing.

"Something glowing yellow is haunted"  Was something that was said to me in the dream, maybe by the 'ghost' figure in the brush?  I think that somehow Sex played a role in my dream again...

I ended up going home with her, and the next morning find the devices.  I had the tail end of the performance, from multiple angles, watching people singing, dancing, making music, and I seemed to have the very beginning of the evening, but it was set to start playing at the end.

The device ended up being my brothers, and he had all the passcodes to access the data on it, and I remember wanting a copy since it would also probably have me having sex on it..

Tarot Time.

Yea, I could have put this in the same post... *shrugs*

The two of swords, upright is my card for my week.

"Tension in relationships.  Indecision. Balanced forces. Military friendships.  A well-developed sense of balance and rhythm but needing direction. Stalemate."

I can see how this meaning "tension in relationships" could be quite true.  Considering all I have been going though at work and such as of late. It seems quite apt actually.

Hopefully this isn't a implication of things to come.

Dream about work?

Well, it was a bit of a strange one.  I got home 9:45PM Saturday night, was in bed by 11:30, Woke up 3:45, back at work by 5:30, Worked till 11:45, Got home by noon, ate and showered by 12:45, back in bed by 1PM, woke up 5PM.

This dream occurred during the second nap if you will.

I was at work, and I think I heard one of my coworkers upstairs in the 'produce' area as I thought of it.  I went up there, and saw, in order, a hole in the floor, covered in glass, inside was deli meats, a 'vat' of raw chickens, almost looking like they were rotting, hundreds of pounds of pepperoni slices in a large vat of its own, multiple people working on prepping these item.

The manager of this area found me, talking about how I must be new, etc etc.  He gave me a tour of the place.  I got away, found Kris, who I work with, with a bunch of coupons for yogurt, and made my way downstairs again. I found my manager Alissa and she said something about that guy being a bastard, and then I woke up.  It was a bit strange, really.

Dreaming in threes...

The first dream, was of my father and I in a truck.  I believe that he had killed a deer of some sort, and we were taking it home.  I remember looking at it, and it actually looked like already prepared meat, like a Virginia ham, made by thin and trim, all cylindrical and such.

I remember we were wrapping it in something, and going to put it on the grill when it fell and landed on the ground, Suzie my dog was there and just sat there and looked at it.

The next dream I had was my brother was making a cake for me, a birthday cake, It was also of a very strange size, put on floppy cardboard. He had handed it to me when it was done, and I was sitting in a chair, and it had started to spin of its own accord.  When he finally grabbed it I had relieved, as I was afraid I was going to drop it. 

He was mixing frosting with strawberries when I had left.  I remember accidentally walking into my fathers room in this dream and he started to sit up, and I walked out.

I think I then went into my room and fell asleep, and after something about vampires, (I really cannot remember what, just that I had mumbled that into my recorder this morning) I had a dream where I woke up at work, It was busy, like a Sunday.  Chantal looked at me, and had asked if I was awake yet, and I could only respond "No."  I also thought to myself in this dream that I really should make a recording of my other two dreams, but didn't become lucid, but I did end up waking up after that thought.

But, I have to get ready for work, since they had called me.  But Success! I managed to get the Christmas card I had promised out into the mail today. So I'm happy.

Tarot Time!

General pull for the week yielded me the moon, upright.  It means, according to the book.  "Intuition, Imagination, deception.  Unfoldment of latent psychic powers. Unforseen perils, secret foes.  Bad luck for one you love."

Nothing for nothing?  I had the feeling in my gut as soon as I touched my cards tonight.  One that I have started to akin to change, or being uneasy.  I'm not sure what its about.  But this card furthers Luin's reading from last week, with her Oracle deck, about not dismissing feelings... It seems to be following that same path. 

I also find it amusing to see a dog, and a wolf, being led by the light of the moon, though humanity and beyond.  Wolf, natures creation, dog, domesticated by man. Etc Etc.

Pair of dreams

Well.  I had a fun morning :).

Also dreamed last night, but this mornings fun didn't allow me to post about it till now.

I dreamed that I was in an SUV of some sort, driving,  We entered some sort of park, where we were supposed to be walking though, but instead drove though the wooden gateway and down the path.  There were times where I thought the vehicle would stop because of the water, and others where I thought it wouldn't fit over the footbridge or something similar.  We drove past groups of exotic animals like flamingos and other such animals.

There was a point in this dream where I came across a crashed police car, and I believe I was being chased.  I took out the gun and ammo and placed it somewhere, and then had the thought.  "Now I am going to replay this level and grab it from this container."

I noticed after I got out of the SUV I noticed I was with someone else, and after grabbing these items, i was that other person.  As the other person i was being chased and shot at, running though the woods.

The other dream Jon my second manager at work, was back and Megan was hanging off his back while I was talking to him.  I remember him looking at me and asking. "Is it really that important right now?"

*shrugs*

Ha.  A dream about making a recording too... I was being chased because as the 'second character' from the first dream I had grabbed something or other that I shouldn't have.

For the record, I did meditate last night a bit, fell asleep while doing so, but didn't open any chakras.

Dreaming of Haunted Houses.

Slept pretty well last night.  Didn't wake up at all.  Though I did have a few interesting dreams.

I dreamed that I had watched a movie based upon a 'true haunted house story'  It seemed pretty realistic, where the family was terrorized by an unseen entity.  Later, It was almost like I had moved into the house that was in the movie.  I remember thinking "I wonder if my parents know that this is the house from the movie."

I wish with two younger kids, as well, and I was walking though a hallway with them.  One of the rooms, was in shades of gray, and in the far corner there was a stuffed bunny.  The young kid, who had a full head of blond curls (something akin to what I myself looked like when I was young, I suspect.), turned to look into the room and walk into it.  I stopped them... Instead the stuffed rabbit came closer to us.

The other dream that I had was about me at work.  I was with a couple of coworkers, and I remember one of them stuck some labels onto my back.  I noticed that none of us were wearing our work attire, and I looked at the bottom of my shoes, Shannon took a rubber stamp and stamped the bottom of my shoe.  I found my jacket in the trashcan a bit afterwards, and I remember reaching behind my back and removing the labels.

I woke up after that.

Odd meditation experience.

Well, a long day prevented me from posting this before now.

I had an odd experience last night, while meditating after taking some Nyqil.  Probably not the smartest thing to attempt, since any results would be suspect, but I wouldn't be the first person to use a substance and then attempt something metaphysical related.

I was meditating, and I had an odd sensation.  Instead of the usual 'I can feel energy' sensation it was more like a rhythmic pounding.  Not that many people would understand the sound I'm talking about.  Its was something akin to something bouncing off of a rotating blade at a high rate of speed, a rhythmic pounding.

I was lying back feeling the energy. But instead of being smooth, it felt like that.  It also felt like my arms and legs were getting pulled away from my core.  Down, and away, and then after being stretched, away  to my left. All the while, the rhythmic pounding.  It was just an odd experience. I fell asleep a short while afterwards.

Dream Fragment

Just a small bit of a dream remembered.

I was in my grandparents house, I was going to stay there overnight and was thinking that maybe  I would remember some of my dreams.  I was a few other people, though I can't be sure why.  The atmosphere seemed slightly strange.

That is all I can remember.  Though when I woke up my father was talking to my mother about something, so its not like I had much time to explore what I did remember.  Ah well.

EDIT:

I really didn't do a good job describing this.  I was in the living room.  I was sitting on the sofa in its old position.  That is against the back wall.  The recliner forward a bit to the right.  The main entrance further in front of that, TV in front of me, the hallway into the bedrooms further up on the left, going straight.  On the right side of the hallway would have been the bathroom, on the left, the sowing room, which was my aunts bedroom, the master bedroom after that, and straight ahead was my mothers room, which was also the room my brother and I slept in when we stayed there.

I'm not sure what room I was planning on staying in.  But it was quite misty in the house.  *shrugs*

Strange night.

Well... that was a decidedly strange night for sure.  It started out with me talking to Luinbariel about a few things, mentioning shields and such.  So I decided. "Its been a while since I worked on mine, I might as well..."

So I got down to it.  Got off the computer around 11:30ish, probably 10 or so minutes later, within reason.  I went though the steps, opening chakras, bringing in energy into myself, flushing grounding, all of that.  First thing that happened.  While doing the meditation I felt as if my body was approaching a wall.  As if I was flying though the darkness that is typical of my void meditation and approaching something.  It came from my right side.  My body jerked as if I was attempting to move away from whatever I was approaching (I am going to upload the recordings when I'm done, check 111205_001.mp3 for this recording.)  I made a note in this that I also attempted to make my detection shield as well.

EDIT:  After i made my shield (why did I make it rusy orange in color? I have no idea.) I started at my  head, an willed energy down though my body, with the intent of pushing out impurities and other such things.  I felt the pressure build as I went though iht, When I was near my throat I felt the pressure in my stomach/solar plexuses/sacral chakra's, as I went lower so did the pressure, until it was all down by my feet, which is where grounding takes place, that and the root...  It was odd as well...

1:56 in the morning (111205_002.mp3)  I had a dream where I had a chat with Luin over IRC.  She was video chatting with people and that she remembered when she needed a youtube account.  That she was going to  'use it until it falls'.  She was also discussing about how she was working on 'getting me there' (to where she lives?" and that it was going to cost $69... *shrugs*

There was something else, as noted in 111205_003.mp3

I had a dream where there were at least two four headed dogs in my dreams.  They had heads on either side of their body, if you ever seen the cartoon Catdog, you know what I'm getting at, except two heads on either side.  At one point one of them had a human head on one side, and two dog heads on the other.  It was strange, enough so that I believe that is why I ended up waking up when I did.

And then there was the dream where someone else and I were going though a place.  Sort of like a waterpark,  We were friends with the owner, and we ended up launching a watercraft out of one area into another.  We ended up breaking a glass partition, and I offered to pay for it.  Someone was chasing us, so I jumped down and landed into another pool of water.

I then was at work suddenly talking to Chantal.  On the table was a group of labels with sticky backing, stapled with a staple gun, each end of one attached to the next with the staples, with the ends pointing at a chair.  Decidedly strange.

111205_004 mentions that I said in the dream where I was upstairs at work, that I had 'gone though it multiple times, and that the second time through I managed to make them think it wasn't my fault.  I seem to remember having the dream, at least twice, where the outcomes were different... 

AND 111205_005.  I was working in the grocery back room, still for the Deli as I do IRL.  I was looking for our order to get back to the deli.  It was on top of a large metal shelving.  I had to go up some hydraulically controlled stairs to get on top of these shelves.  Where I could see the stuff I wanted.  I remember watching someone control these stairs with wonder and awe.  The stairs had a series of buttons on the handrail on the side, so that you could control how high it went up.

Even though I wasn't allowed to couch the power jacks I was chosen to help someone do some work in the back room, to get the items for the Deli.

These are the 5 recordings in question. 

Two updates, Whoo!

Whelp.  I took a nap.

I had a bit of a dream fragment during it.

I was walking though a parking garage.  There were a few people in it, and I walked around past the cars and them.  Next to a van there was 3 smaller dogs lying on the ground, and on the other side two larger ones where sitting.  Walking past the van itself I saw at least two people inside, reclining in the drivers and passenger seats, respectively.

A woman who I walked past looked at the dogs and remarked, "Oh what well trained dogs!"

As I exited the dogs I saw an olderman talking to himself.  "Well how about soup, that's a good human food.  We also need..." He started to list things like chicken breast, different brands of dog foods, and some other things though the particulars I do not remember.  He had an odd sort of accent.

He was taller than he looked, and walked with a slightly bent back.  Graying hair, salt and pepper beard.  I believe he had on a vest, with many pockets, and possibly a Bluetooth in his ear.

Tarot time?!? I think it is. Yes.

Ive been neglecting doing a tarot reading for myself for a while.

So.  I did one, just now.  General reading for the week

My card?

This card, upright, means "Force of character, spiritual power overcoming material power, love triumphing over hate, the higher nature over carnal desires."

That is what the book I have says. As to how it relates to my week? I would say that I need to focus on those qualities to get though it.  Meaning overall that my week itself seems like it is not going to be the best week ever.  Ah well.

Strange Dream

I was heading though the woods, going home, over the gnarled roots.

I could hear someone talking about the humidity, about how it was supposed to be 90 degrees out, but there was snow on the ground.  I remember picking up some snow as I moved, and exited the wooded area into a beach area.  I remember throwing the snow into the lake, which was partially frozen.

I entered though a sliding glass door.  The floors were made of wood and my boots where melting all over it.  They had mud and sand all over them.  I cleaned up after myself using a towel, and from there walked into the kitchen.  My mother had a bowl and a plate, my father had a bowl, and I believe there were two more bowls on the table.  I grabbed three more plates.  They were square, and white.  and I grabbed some of the food for myself.  I believe they were dumplings with some sort of sauce on them.

I remember thinking that I should get some for my brother, who currently lives in Medford.

I remembered another dream, or a part of the first, a bit later.

I was with a group of people. One of the other guys was saying about how a Dodge Charger (it might have been Challenger however) would be a nice car, and it seemed like he had alot of money cause he was talking about buying it.  I remember walking up to someones car, knocking on the window, and asking if I could get a ride from them.  They said yes.

I think that I actually had the part with the cars before the one about going though the woods, like those events led up to me running though the woods. But it honestly felt like I was running from something, for one reason or another.

Little details.

Seems like I'm not remembering much in the way of dreams lately.

I remember waking up around 6AM or so, when other people in my house were stirring.  Other than that, I woke up about 8:30, I was dreaming that I was looking at a sink of some sort.  Someone was explaining how to fix it, and I believe I was using some sort of putty to fill in cracks and such.

*shrugs*  I know that there was something else when I woke up at 6, but... for the life of me I cannot remember now. 

Road Trips; or: How I got to the overflowing store.

My eldest brother and I were in a car.  My father was also in another car, going to the same place.  Driving down those same familiar, empty roads.  My father, though going to the same town was going to a different place than myself, and it seemed like my brother was just going with me for the ride.

I ended up parking in the same general area as my father, though I am unsure as to where my brother went.  My father was talking about something, I think my brother stayed with him, to look at the stores while I approached the larger stone building.  I remember that it had a large stone ball sitting next to the stairs. 

I walked up the steps and they were closed.  It seemed to be a very large store, as they had clothing, food, and lots of other areas.  All of them said closed except for one which is what I needed.

I looked at the woman who was working the reception area, and noticed water flowing down the stairs behind her.  I'm not sure if I pointed it out or if she noticed it, but I followed her upstairs.  Two statues that were next to the stairs came to move, one followed her and she ordered the other one to stay at the foot of the stairs and not let anyone up.  I followed her upstairs and found a machine, I believe it was a pump of some sort, spewing water out and it was flowing down the stairs.  The water was rapidly rising and flowing down the stairs faster and faster. 

I woke up after this point.

So Lazy.

I'm behind in my NaNoWriMo.

I should probably be asleep.  I'm waking up in... 3 hours to go shopping.  Yay?

Black friday sales, etc.  But... Ive been lazy.  My brother thinks I need a system to attempt to stay on track, build goals for myself try to keep up with them. 

He said today.

"Losers have goals, winners have systems" and apparently it was quote he had heard somewhere else.

I also found this nifty little wallpaper which made me chuckle.

They both made me chuckle, so I figured I would share.

Things I got done today?

I fixed my ubuntu installation.  by reinstalling.  But I was able to save my files and such... why I didn't do this before now? Lazy? probably.

But yay, one thing done!

Dreams about Crystals?

I was spreading asphalt, to make a roadway.  I was pulling out rocks and found some amazing crystals.  One was an amazing green color with blue tints, and the other one was an amazing purple color.  I looked at the person I was with and asked what it was.  He responded, "Oh so and so will know" I remember putting them on a table next to the area where we were spreading the asphalt.

My waking mind says that maybe he said Luin, but... I cannot be sure.

Dreams.

So... I was almost late to work today.  Woke up 4AM to my alarm, snoozed until 5, with it going off again and again. Fell back asleep around 5, and since it was an hour past when the alarm was set It didn't go off again.

Ended up having the following dream.  Megan S, Meghan F. along with two Asian people were in my car.  I was in the back set Meghan F was driving, I believe though one of the larger cities near where I live,  A song.. I believe this one came on from my USB drive.  I went to change it and the Asian people stopped me.

I was woken up while jamming to that tune by my father.

"Its 5:30, don't you have to be at work?"

So I got dressed ran out the door to work, worked till noon, losing my voice throughout because of calling numbers.

Megan and Meghan both were at work, oddly enough.  Megan had me go into her purse and put lemon oil in my water, she says its good for your throat when its sore.  Nice of her, if a bit awkward for me.  ha.

I then got home after 12:30, sat in the sun for a while with my dog, and parents, came in ate some stew, showered, slept from 2-5:30, ate some dinner and here I am....

Could be worse I guess.

Strange dreams

Last night was a strange night.

I attempted for the first time to use a sigil before falling asleep, to loose success since I didn't meditate on it much (heh, I know, lazy prick).  The point of which was to meet my guide in my dreams.

I either dreamed, or did wake up at least twice throughout the night, the second time being when everyone else was awake and the sun was starting to come up, probably 6:30 in the morning or so?.

As far as my dreams.  I was in a room with a few other people.  It was 7 in the morning, the sun was coming up, and I was telling them that I should get to sleep.

Another dream I remember having, granted in no particular order, was getting a text from my manager, saying "Its past 6 o'clock, so its already too late"

I think that was in relation to getting to work on time.  Not quite sure though.

The other dream was a bit weirder though.

I was at home, when I heard noise outside, something like a dog barking, except inside my own back yard.  I knew that my dog was in the house, and saw her as I went outside.  In my yard was 3 other dogs, all golden retrievers.  I brought them into my house.  My dog has brown eyes, red collar.  One of the other dogs had the same red collar, but blue eyes, another had brown eyes like mine, but with a rope like collar with a solid brass ring  (almost like a necklace) hanging from their neck.  The third I cannot remember.

I remember thinking that the one with the rope looked a little mean, or somehow slightly deformed in the shape of its head.

The one with the blue eyes was the one I ended up spending the most time with.

It was just a strange dream, and a strange night overall.

Dreamin'

I had a seemingly epic dream last night.

I found myself attempting to get into my place of work at night.  The store itself was seemingly darker than it has ever been before. I was with at least 2 friends, and I don't remember why I wanted to get into the store itself. I then heard something moving in the pitch black parking lot behind me.

Turning around I saw a shopping carriage roll past the entrance that I was standing at. Suddenly The 'parking lot' seemed to shift.  My car was now parked down a hill next to a large grassy hill.  The carriage moved down towards my parked car, and I remember thinking "I hope that doesn't hit my car!"

The carriage seemed to turn sideways and stopped in front of my car without hitting it.  I then heard another carriage starting to move.  Looking into the darkness of what was once again my works parking lot, I could see nothing.  Another shopping cart went flying past, heading towards where my car was parked, suddenly there was another car parked there, I believe it could have been my mothers white car.

I called out into the darkness "Who's there!" No one answered.  I heard a noise behind me, and turned around, someone walked out of a doorway, I turned to my friends and we walked down the hill towards the cars.  I got into mine, while they get into the other one.  My dog came running down the hill and I opened the passenger door for her. Getting into the car myself I started the engine.

The car sounded like shit.  It honestly sounded like it was in either the wrong gear or that something was horribly wrong with the transmission.  I somehow found myself driving to the mall, while it was still dark out.  I managed to get inside and just wandered around.  No one bothered me while I was there.  I wandered though the empty stores, sometimes seeing nighttime personnel, but otherwise not seeing many people.

I made my way to the exit of the mall and saw a couple of cute girls, I walked up to my car, and theirs was parked right next to mine.  Somehow I found myself getting into the back seat of their vehicle, and I looked at the one getting into the passenger seat.  "You know, if you wanted to you could get into the back seat with me?" I remember either thinking or saying.  I then remember freaking out a bit, wondering if I had said that out loud or to myself.

I think this is when I woke up.

I do have two other 'dream segments'

One was where I was at work, in the receiving area.  I believe one of the part time receivers was there, Laura, a women that I knew back in 4th grade or so.  I remember I had a pillow, and was spraying it with something, Lysol or febreeze or something similar.  Someone then walked into the back room and grabbed it from me, and put their head down on it. 

This could have come before the whole 'being outside of work' or something completely unrelated.

I then had another dream  I was looking at a system of roots.  At the end of each 'branch, was something resembling an eye.  These eyes either stropped there or had two child nodes coming out of them, and so on with each resulting node.  Something was manipulating these nodes, causing the last nodes to either grow new child nodes, or for one of the adult nodes to absorb the power of the child nodes.

I remember thinking that whoever was manipulating this situation was doing so to make each of these nodes as powerful as possible.  I then saw one of these 'trees' roots to move, and to cause the eye to disconnect, it fell and hit somewhere, and exploded.  "I think they are doing this to create weapons." I thought.

That was my dreams from last night...  *shrugs*  In other news Ive been feeling slightly under the weather, headache, stuffy nose, sneezing, couching, phlegm, I feel a bit better now though.

taking a bit of time...

Ive been thinking that maybe Ive been doing a bit too much tarot lately.

In other news, I'm up to 14K words in nanowrimo... I feel pretty good about that...

Ive been neglecting to do things like meditate though, at least serious meditation.  Maybe tonight... though I have work at 6:30 in the morning tomorrow, and then 7 on Friday.

Tarot

Problem	Solution

So, The Sun, again, as my problem.
Book meaning? "Material happiness, success, attainment. A good marriage.  Happy reunions. Achievements in the arts, science, and agriculture. Studies completed; liberation. Pleasure in the simple life"

My Solution? The Hierophant.

Book meaning? "Preference for the outer forms of religion, the ritual, the creed, the ceremony.  The importance of social approval; the need to conform to society."

[22:02:42] <@Luinbariel> I think the Heirophant is a teacher, one whom you draw a lot of knowledge from in many ways including spiritual knowledge. The act of being under such a person's wing, that kind of thing.

Is what Luin had said.  Which would make more sense in this spread.  Basically what is being said is that I'm enjoying the material, but I should be more focused on the immaterial, on those things that cannot be counted, and focused upon.  It makes sense, and slightly confirms a few thoughts I've had.  "I should be meditating more" and all of that.

I guess the sun could also be seen as a card that is saying "Look at me, I'm bright enough to shine on my own.  I can do what I want... Hence the sunflowers looking towards the child and not at the sun.

That needs more thought. 

Tarot

Problem	Solution

So, the ace of pentacles... Luin I think would say that it is again potential, energy without a place to go, and so far Ive been agreeing with her... that it makes sense. The book says "the beginning of wealth and material gain. Gold, prosperity, combined with pleasure and beauty."

EDIT (11/7/11 10:15AM): I can see why Luin says the aces are all about potential now.  All of those cards are about 'the beginnings' but in with their particular relems.  Wealth, Spirit, etc... Interesting to finally notice that.

The 4 of wands means " Perfected work; rest after labor, Peace, prosperity, harmony. Romance, a coming marriage"

Hmm... Lol "romance'  I had someone tell me that someone might like me, and that it was because they need a daddy for their baby...

Can I walk away shaking my head now please?  Oh, and I also had Amy the new full timer call me her boyfriend today... she was kidding (or at least I know she has an ex husband, and a boyfriend atm...)  At least I hope so?  Anywho sleep time.

half assed tarot reading

Problem, page of cups
Soltuion 9 of penticales

problem: begining of feeling for the self, but fear of feeling too good about ones self, narcissism, fear of it, etc...

Solution: push past the fear

Curiosity of luin, <3

Tarot

Problem	Solution, reveresd

The Ten of pentacles means"riches, inheritances. Attention to family matters, interest in one's ancestral tree. A problem concerning a will or pension. May refer to the acquiring of a house or business property." 

Well considering what I'm dealing with in reality its probably referring to the 'attention to family matters' portion.

The king, reversed means "Stupidity. Perverse use of talents. Thriftless. Easy to bribe. Vice. caution against associationw ith gamblers and speculators. If crossed he could be a dangerous man."

Hmmm... I got nothin' on this one... I need sleep

One step...

Finally getting closer to maybe changing things in my life a bit.

On Luin's urging I finally made the phone call to my friend Keith, about the job offer he had for me... a bit late, but better than nothing I guess.  Hes going to talk to the temp agency that is hiring for the company, to see if they are willing to negotiate their starting wage up to where I am now, 10.50 an hour.

I don't think I will want to quit my part time job even if I get it, even if I just work a few nights a week... I dunno I guess that's me being nostalgic or something.  Hes going to call me Monday he says.

Edit:  I know I should work on getting a better job, and that it probably isn't the best job for me... but... I think its time for a change, and I should give this a shot... *shrugs*

Been awhile...

Wow... its been a while since I updated this... Lets see, Saturday night I lost power, as did my work, I stayed late there... Sunday I had to be up early to drive though a snowstorm to get back to work, stayed there for 6 hours, and then I was on a mini-vacation from monday though friday... so I have one day off left!

Been busy though...

So, onto tarot, which Ive been negelecting...

Problem - Solution pull as I have been doing.

Problem, reversed	Solution

The card Strength, reversed means "Domination of the material. Discord, lack of moral force, fear of the unknown in ourselves, abuse of power." According to the book. The first thing that came into my head when I looked at this card though was "lack of strength" or basicly Ive been too lax, and too weak, in my own strength of character. Ive been doing what others want and that maybe just maybe Ive been letting them get things their way for too long.

Lets see what the book has to say about the two of pentacles... "Te ability to juggle two situations at one time. Lightheartedness. gaiety. Recreation. Harmony in the midst of change. New projects may be difficult to launch. News and messages in writing. A nature industrious yet unreliable, elated and then melancholic"

Hmm, so the second card is saying to basicly "take it all in stride, juggle your problems, and hope that they will sort them out?"  Maybe I'm reading these incorrectly.  but part of it is just saying "ride the waves" but maybe the first card is just indicating that these problems exist, but that they will somewhat work themselves out without causing too much upheival...

I'm tired. Time for sleep!

Oh, Im behind in my NaNoWriMo... but I'm trying to keep up!

NaNoWriMo

Well, after alot of hemming and hawing and such, I finally decided to participate in National Novel Writing Month... fun fun.

That along with a few other things that have come up will make this month pretty busy, but it should be fun... I need to work on meditation more, I need to do more work with energy manipulation too.  I just need to *do* more I guess... Ive been lax... ah well.

I should do a tarot pull but its late... and Ive written close to 1600 words tonight so... Ill pick it up again tomorrow maybe?

Drunk Tarot

Problem	Solution

Well this is a first, two of the same suite... The three of swords means "Stormy weather for the affections, Tears, separation, quarreling.  A general upheaval of the environment. Possibility of civil war. Political strife."

The 9 of swords? "Suffering, loss, misery, Burden, oppression. Doubt and desolation. Illness. May mean death of a loved one"

Dude... what?

Tarot Pull...

Problem, Reversed	Solution Reversed

Alrighty then...The knight means "a static nature that is unprogressive, dull, timid, idle, or careless.  It indicates stagnation in one's affairs."

I can agree with that.

The queen? "A perverse character. Intelligent but not to be relied on. Dishonesty. Immorality"

Um, wat?

Tarot Pull

Problem, Reversed	Solution, Reversed

So, The Hermit, reversed means "Refusal to listen to wisdom, Immaturity, foolish vices. Rejection of maturity; the tendency to be a perpetual Peter Pan"

I could see those being problems, I wonder what the Page of Pentacles reveals?

Page of Pentacles, reversed "Dissipation and excess.  Too great pleasure in the material things of life. Wastefulness, luxury. News of the loss of money or worldly goods."

I... don't see how those two correlate, or relate to me at the moment.  I can be immature, at times, but... I don't see how the page in this case relates to the hermit... thoughts?

Dream and Tarot Pull

Hmm, I had a dream last night.  I was in my car, selling coffee out of the back seat, I just put into the keg a full pot of pumpkin coffee. My father showed up, asking why I was still in the car, and I told him it was because I was waiting for these people to decide if they wanted to buy coffee or not. They said they didn't, so I left the car, and locked up, and found myself in the store.

Inside there were 2 women, one blond haired, the other, a brunette, and the blond was wandering around.  I was looking around and noticed gum, bought from another store, repriced and put out for 3.29 a package.  The blond woman walked around me, touching things, looking at a roast beef that was left out, on top of a case, running her hand along it, then along my arm, smiling, and wandering away.

She kept coming back around to me, so I finally followed her into the next room, walking up behind her, and grasping her, feeling her curves...  Her friend poked her head around the corner, blushed and walked away... I woke up as I slipped my hands down between her legs...

Yea....

Onto tarot pull!

Tarot Pull + Dream

So, lets start with the pull

Problem	Solution

I kinda wish i was doing this on purpose now...

My problem is the ace of cups, "The beginning of great love. Joy, contentment. Productiveness, fertility. Beauty and pleasure. A reminder that when the mind is filled with Spirit, the Spirit will fill the material cup to overflowing"

My solution is The High Priestess, "Unrevaled future, hidden influences at work. Of special value for artists, poets, composers, mystics.  When this card apperas in a man's reading, it represents the perfect woman all men dream of; in a woman's reading it may indicate that she can find such virtues in herself or in a friend."

The points that stand out to me is the fact that the problem card has connected to it "A reminder that when the mind is filled with spirit..."  Whereas the second card, my solution is the high priestess which is a card that is highly dealing with matters of a spiritual nature.  I think that this pull is telling me that I have been ignoring matters of the spirit, as of late, in order to deal with matters of the physical.

Something to ponder I suppose, now onto something spiritual (in a sense) with a dream from last night.

Tarot Pull

Problem	Solution

The Ten of Cups means "contentment. Lasting happiness because it is inspired from above rather than being the sensual satisfaction indicated in the nine of cups. Perfection of human love. Great friendship. lasting success. Peacemaking."

The empress means "material wealth, marriage, fertility for would-be parents, for farmers, or for people in the creative arts.  If its position is not in the best placement in relation to other cards, it sometimes indicates luxury or dissipation."

I'm not seeing how these two cards are related really.  I can see that the problem is kind of pointing at those qualities taken to extremes, for example the fact I try to keep the peace, and such.  But I'm not sure how to take the empress in this situation.

Tarot Pull

Problem	Solution

So Without going into the long and short of it, the hanged man is saying that my self-surrender is the problem in this case, while the 9 of wands is saying that I need to find the strength to push though to the end...

Some days...

Okay, I'm trying hard not to be a bitch about things, alright.  But venting is needed.

Okay, so I went out last night, okay so it was a group of just male friends, bowling, okay, so I had a few fucking drinks, okay, I had fun, I, yes me, went out with a FRIEND, and had FUN.

Fuck off and have a nice night.

So I came home at 12:30 in the morning, and I'm sorry I woke your ass up, yes, you NEED your sleep, and yes you fucking CAN'T fall asleep like a normal fucking human being, and YES your fucking mind TURNS AND TURNS at night, get a fucking sleeping aide like a normal fucking person.

And beyond that, asking "So, how was the sausage-fest last night" DOES NOT A FUCKING "conversation starter" make, and YOU WONDER WHY I just answered with an "eh, good, how was your day" "Horrible" Oh, thats nice, and you wonder why i'm not having a conversation with you yet?

"You don't seem like yourself today" Well because I woke up to someone being bitchy, cause I didn't answer my phone, and RUN out to get a haircut this morning, and its MY FAULT that he knocked over a box of white cornmeal, and I'm supposed to DROP everything because your hip is hurting, again. Well I'm sorry, I have a PART-TIME job to get to, which I work 5 hours a day...


Just... fuck this day.



FUCK!


Anyways, since I'm here I might as well do a tarot card pull...

Tarot Pull

Problem, reversed	Solution

Hmm

So the Queen of pentacles, reversed means "Mistrust, suspicion, Deties neglected. Dependence on others. Changeable. Fearful of failure"

While the sun means, "material happiness, success, attainment. A good marriage. Happy reunions. Achievements in the arts, science, and agriculture. Studies completeed; liberation. Pleasure in the simple life"

So basicly these cards are saying that my mistrust of others, and my dependance on my family is causing me to be fearful of my own failure.  The sun, in this cause is pretty much saying "Get out, Do, experience..."

A pretty interesting pull, considering I am leaving to go out in about 10 minutes.

Tarot Pull

Problem	Solution

So the chariot, means "triumph, success, control over the forces of nature -- thus triumph over ill health as well as money difficulties or enemies of any sort, including one's own lower animal passions.  This is a card of those who achieve greatness.. It may also indicate travel in comfort. Mental and physical powers should lead to fulfillment."

The moon on the other hand means "intuition, imagination, deception.  Unfoldment of latent psychic powers.  Unforeseen perils, secret foes.  Bad luck for one you love."

Seems like an interesitng pull once again, not exactly happy, but... I dunno...

Something to note, I got a weird feeling as I was shuffling the deck, stopped there, and di the cuts, and this is what I pulled...

Tarot Pull - Problem & solution

Problem	Solution

So our problem today was the 6 of wands.
"Good news.  Victory after strife. Pleasure gained though labor.  Success though industry.  Advancement in the arts and sciences. Friends are helpful."

Our solution, the four of pentacles means "assured material gain, success. Earthly power, but leading to nothing beyond it. Gifts legacy, inheritance. May indicate a miserly, ungenerous character"

 I'm having issues figuring out how these two cards fit, the problem card represents something quite positive, while the solution card seems to reflect something much darker.  Almost as if the solution to the problem of working hard is to... take what I can get and keep it to myself...

Eh... not sure how I feel about this pull to be honest.

Tarot pull - Problem and Solution

Problem	Solution, reversed

Hmm, so my problem is the five of cups, upright.  I am not going to use my book on this particular card, since I think I know what it means.  It is akin to looking at all of the things you have already lost, as attributed by the spilt cups in front of him.  Meanwhile behind him is two cps still full, still there for the taking, but instead of looking at what he has, he is mourning the loss of what is in front of him.

Just to double check myself -- Book defines it as "Disappointment.  Sorrow in those things from which pleasure was expected.  Disillusionments in love.. Marriage broken up. Loss of friendship. Vain regrets; loss, but with something left over"

I like the way I look at the card better in my opinion.

The other card, the five of swords, reversed... I am not as familiar with.
 "Beware of pride.  There is a chance of loss or defeat.  Attendance at a funeral. Empy victory. Sorrow. Weakness"

Hmm... not a happy pull, on either side of this it seems..

So... my problem is regretting what Ive lost, or even failed to obtain in the first place, but... the solution, beware of pride?   Attendance at a funeral, well I do have a sick uncle... cancer.  Ugh, this is just a sad pull overall, and I'm not even sure how I could tie these together.

Dreams

Well, I dreamed last night that I got a package in the mail. In it was a packet of a substance that looked like sand, and a machine that slowly heats up the air around it... I believe it was made so that you could pour the sand on yourself, and 'melt' it to create things on your skin... Along with that I remember getting handed an apple, and a few other disjointed things... Weird night all in all.

More Tarot

Problem, Reversed	Solution

Hmm The Three of pentacles, reversed. "Lack of skill, Ignorance, Selfishness. Commenplace ideals; preoccupation with gain" Death on the other hand, our solution, means "Transformation, change, destruction followed by renewal. The change may be in consciousness,. Birth of new ideas, new opportunities." I guess I have been focusing on my own gain as of late, thinking of trying to find a new better paying job, and all of that, though the solution is just to go about and make the changes, is what it seems to be telling me. These two seem to fit together quite well... and makes sense to me... I talked to a coworker today, her father works for the company in the IT department, just asked her to introduce me at some time... I never did call Keith on his offer either... I should tuesday, since I have that day off.

Tarot - Huh?

Wanted to do the tarot pull for the night before sleeping...

The Problem	The Solution

If that worked, this looks pretty now..

Anywho.

The Sun, which is the problem in this case is an interesting card...

"Material happiness, success, attainment.  A good marriage, Happy reunions.  Achievements in the arts, science and agriculture.  Studies completed; liberation.  Pleasure in the simple life"

There is nothing negative in this card, as far as I can see...   Lets see what the world brings to the table..

"Completion, reward, success, triumph in all undertakings. Travel, change of residence, arrival at a state of Cosmic Consciousness.  The path of liberation"

Hmm, granted going on with the book meanings, but I fail to see what these particular cards are trying to say.  

Another Tarot Pull

No images today, until I can figure out a better way to set it up.
Six of pentacles reversed. was todays problem. Four of swords, reversed, was todays solution.

The Six of pentacles while reversed deals with being purse proud, not giving when one should, jealsouy, bad debts, present prosperity threatened. Gifts given as a bribe.

This is an interesting card to note, because I have been receiving less hours at work, but also told my parents if need be, I can take over one of the household bills to be able to help them out...

The Four of swords, reversed deals with renewed activity, qualified success.. Movement in ones affairs; social unrest. A caution to be wise, circumspect and economical.

Also interesting, considering the other card here. I suppose its telling me that, I shouldn't be too selfish as to not help out, but to be do so within my means, and not overreach my bounds.

Good advice for anyone I suppose. In other news, I woke up this morning at 4:30, to a ball of light, flashing before my eyes, and being very light sensitive. I also meditated this morning, grounded myself, cleansed my chakras, and attempted to setup a 'sensing' shield. I should work on it more, later perhaps.

Tarot Pull - Problem and Solution

Problem, Reversed

So, the problem I faced today was, the three of cups, reversed. The meaning of that card is "over indulgence of food or drink, success turns to ashes, pleasure turns to pain, too much sensuality"

The other card, King of swords "power, strength, authority, military intelegance" among a few other things.

So, trying to pull these into something that could have affected me today.  I was asked to go out today, for bowling, and a few beers, which could have been a problem, but I didn't go.  I'm not too sure that these have much effect on me today. I am going to try to do one of these a day, and try to learn the cards, and get better at reading what they mean.

Another night of dreams.

Busy night, two longish dreams, and a short remebered segment that doesn't seem to fit under cut.

Scaryish Dream

I was just woken up from a pretty dark dream, so its probably going to be a bit disjointed...

I seemed to be in an old house, I remembered that it seemed really familiar and that it was almost video-game-like in the way that I remembered in the dream "If I do this, these events will happen"  Like "If I go down this hallway I will get lost" or something equally as contrived.  I remember looking though one of the windows knowing that at one point I saw 'someone' run though the yard, and that if I leave this room, go down such and such a hallway I would find other clues.

The dream was very silent-hill-esque now that I think about it...

It also had some boarderland like features.  At one point I remember I was running from some creature and there was something very much like a cutscene, where I watched something resembling a claptrap come out of a machine, and that is what was supposed to be chasing me... I remember going though doors and getting stuck on things on the floor, like you did in badly programmed games at times.  I remember just before i got woken up I was running away from a humanoid creature that was chasing me down, and thinking "I need such and such a talisman so that this thing doesn't kill me outright as soon as I confront it, and running away tripping on things on the floor, then going though a doorway.  I was then... outside myself, and I was closing the door behind the me that just ran though it thinking that I would... protect myself? my brother?

Needless to say, I was about to confront that which I feared, without the items that would protect me.

I was then woken up by someone and slightly angry about it.

Ranting

I guess I had a few options for this rant... Facebook, here, a chat-room with semi-sympathetic ears... or a word document... Six one way half dozen the other I suppose.

I am starting to hate being talked down to like some semi-functional human.  Like the little retarded kid who isn't going to realize that as soon as your done talking to him your going to turn around and bad mouth them behind their backs.

I don't even know why I am bothering to write any of this down at all.  I have always let the injustices slide off my back before, why should this be any different...  For fucks sake its not like anyone reads this anyways, except for Luin, who I as probably one of my best friends at the moment....  Lets see... I can count maybe... 2 people I am currently working with as something resembling friends, meaning I can have a conversation with them and not think that they are going to turn around and laugh about it behind my back.  Can I honestly even consider them friends?  I see them at work, sometimes talk with them in the parking lot after the fact...

Something is bound to break at some point... Goodness knows what... Its not like its anything new to me; I went though school under the same stressors and came though that intact.

My oldest boss, the full timer that got transferred to her store, those people I trusted, whom I felt that I could have a meaningful conversation with.

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Enough of that I guess... It seems like all indicators are pointing at me needing to let something change... I have heard from 3, or maybe its 5 now, people that I should consider asking for full time at the place I am working at now.  All's I can think about is that I already don't care for my job now...

But really when I think about it... I should have asked Meghan about her father when I saw her Saturday night.  My current manager said that he works for our company as an IT professional at corporate. I need to call Keith, talk to him.  He offered to put my name in for consideration for the job that he is getting promoted from, where he was making 9 dollars an hour... but that would be a 1.50 an hour paycut, even if I worked full time there, I would still be taking a hit on the money end of things...

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Unrelated note, Tammy, Allissa, and possibly Megan will be joining me for the meeting/video showing of Paratom, from the last post... should be interesting considering Megan is one of the few people who talks to me like a human being and not like I'm a fucking retard... Unlike most of the people my age or younger who I work with... Tammy and Allissa being older I guess I just don't get the vibe... quite as much.  Maybe I'm just getting more and more cynical. 

Dreams about snow?

Its a little early in the year, but it is honestly colder so far this month than it was during the month of November last year.

I had a dream where I was in my house and I looked outside and it was snowing... Kinda inconsequential but I don't know...

I am going to see the paranormal investigation group Paratom this tuesday.... Should be interesting if nothing else.  My boss heard me and a coworker talking about going and said that it sounded interesting and that she might go as well...

Another dream.

Last night I got to meditate again, for the first time in a while, did some grounded meditation, but got interrupted by what sounded like footsteps on the landing in front of the bathroom.  Clearly the most logical explanation would be the house settling, but it was still odd..

I woke up around 9 remembering the following dream.

I was walking with my friend Keith from college.  He was talking to an Asian girl asking if they could meet up later, but it was becoming clear she was having a hard time understanding him.  He finally just asked he if he could grope her, and I laughed.  Chantal from work said to not encourage him, but I was still chuckling.

I found myself in a house, or apartment building of some sort. I believe with my father.  He pulled his bed away from the wall, and un-tucked some of the blankets because it was too tight.  We somehow decided to go into the secret room, and attempted to find the hidden door.

The wallpaper in this room looks excactly like the wallpaper in my parents room in reality.  As we opened the door, I saw it rip, almost like the paper was over the hidden door.

We went into the dusty dark room, and slowly looked around.  Sitting in the center was a table on top of which was a statue that looked like an angel figure.  I continued to wander about, and came across a table.  Sitting on the table was two vials 3/4 filled with water, and floating in the water was spices of some sort.  I remember picking it up and looking at it, and hoping that I wasn't disturbing something.

Later in the dream I was in the house with the Asian person from before, and it seemed like they were living with us.  I remember thinking about warning them that the house was haunted.

Edits under cut

October

Well... Its October, and once again the seasons are starting to shift.  The air is cooler, the leaves are turning, and this has got to be my favorite time of year.

Not much in the way of dreams lately.  Haven't really be meditating either, though I should do that tonight before I go to sleep.

I also started today to change the way I take my vitamins.  I used to take them all one lump sum at some point during the day, 2 multivitamins, 2 vitamin e's, a vitamin c, and a single capsule of cinnamon.  I am now taking, a multivitamin, a vitamin e, the c, and the cinnamon in the morning, and taking the rest at night.  Should help with the the amount absorbed a bit... and more vitamins in your system is supposed to help dream recall, at least there b6, and b12 are involved...

Fair

Well I did go to the fair, but sadly didn't find the concessions for the stones that I was at last year.  Saw a few other venders, but nothing that really caught my interests... Maybe another time...

Off to the fair tomorrow.

Going to wake up early tomorrow and go to the fair, look at displays, eat a doughnut (YUM)!

Should be a fun time, I should hopefully be looking at stones, and other interesting items while I am there.  Though this may mean that I am out of contact with everyone for the day... cause I have work after that...

Ah well.  Should be a fun time and if I pick anything up Ill probably put a post up here about it.

Dreaming about stones

Had a few beers last night, which sometimes helps and sometimes hurts recall. 

I woke up about 9AM remembering the following dream.  I was inside a tent, there were tables set up all around me with differing stones and crystals on them.  I was looking at the ones marked labradorite, and noticed that in the dream they looked different than the one I have in reality.  These were more clear, but still had some of the same markings... I picked one up, and moved on my way.  I looked at the differing stones from there and noticed large bags of just colored rocks.  I picked one up and pushed my fingernail into it.  The paint on the outside shattered and a plain rock was shown bare.

I then noticed that I had a small pile of these white, yellow, blue, and red painted rocks.  I attempted to put them back into the bags but they where all getting mixed together because of how small they were.

There were a few other types of stones, but I can't say that I noticed the names of them.  There were people there waiting to take the money of the people buying the stones, the one of which was closest to me was a bored looking young woman.

This dream is actually interesting since the Fair that I go to usually every year is actually coming up I believe next week.  I should go look at the selection they are going to have.  Any thoughts on what I should pick up?

Another Attempt.

Attempted contact again.  Last nights dreams had nothing out of the ordinary in them.  One with my brother, at home saying "At least they bought the right stuff this time" He is a vegetarian, and is coming home for my fathers birthday this weekend.

Other than that none of the other dreams made much sense.  Ill probably let it sit over the weekend and see if anything comes up in my dreams over the next couple of nights.

Energy Work

Did some energy work last night, in hopes of contacting an entity. Didn't have any results last night, but last time I tried this experiment it took a day or two for something to happen. I am not working till noon again tomorrow so I have more time to see if I have any strange dreams, maybe I will re-invite the entity to my dreams tonight again.

Fell asleep while meditating...

Started to attempt something last night, meditated with my labradorite, ended up falling asleep with it on my person.

I dreamed that I was in my car, drove to the pharmacy, I picked up a single tube of orange toothpaste, and drove home.  The sun was out, the clock in the car read 7AM.  I woke up in reality it was a little after 7AM...

Yea, was a bit strange.  Ended up finding my labradorite on the floor about centered underneath the bed.   I also had another dream between 7AM and 11Am, but cannot for the life of me recall it.

So glad that I had 2 days off in a row this week, haven't had one of those in a while.

Long work week.

Well this week has been very long for me.  Since I usually work part time, on average of 30 hours a week. And this week I have worked 31.5 hours in the last 3 days, plus 14 hours over another 3 days of work.


Also, did I wonder if anyone else had one of those days, on Friday.  It seemed like every time I had my back to an open space yesterday, I was expecting someone to be behind me watching me.  I turned around on more than one occasion and could have sworn I saw a flash of a face at varying distances away.  And it seemed like it wasn't always the same either.

Below the cut, dreams from Friday night.

Strange night

A few things of note from last night.  I attempted to meet up with Luin last night, in our dream, as well as meditated with the labradorite stone that I possess. 

I dreamed that I was playing a video game with my brother, and it was a helicopter vs truck racing game.  At some point I felt like I was the helicopter, and I remember flying around, shooting guns, and rockets, full with sensations as if i was flying and everything else.  It looked like a Sega Cd, or maybe a play station 1, the tv stated to turn read, and the game turned to "hell difficulty" after a point.  I woke up after this dream, at 10AM.

The other dream I remember having was a bit stranger.  I was at a camp of some type, and i was ordering food at the cafeteria. The guy there was kind of an ass, and was generally being mean and abrupt. The person before me had ordered waffles, and I ordered 3 of them myself, and he was generally being mean about it because I said that was all I wanted. I said that maybe I should add some maple syrup to that, and he asked "Oh maybe you want some egg and hash browns with that too" implying that I was ordering a lot of food or something.  Somehow the topic of "Maybe you want a pony too" came up and I acted like a retard, and said yes, that would be great.  Which actually made him more dour.

My father then showed up and the guys way of acting changed.  Completely.  His voice became more flamboyant, and he acted like he wanted to make my father happy, or at least make him believe that he was a nice guy, almost like my dad was in charge, or something.  I said hello to my father, and the guys face dropped, and he almost looked ashamed or scared somewhat.  My dad was busting his balls and I was laughing about it.

I left the area at this point, knowing that when my food was ready I could go back and get it. I ran into a girl there, who was apparently an old flame, or past girlfriend. We were talking about what I was doing there, sitting on a balcony, overlooking mountains looking at the snow covered peaks.  She asked what I was doing there, why i came back to this place... She mentioned how I got her into the occult. I mentioned that this place isn't much worse than at home, and she gave me a deadpan look as if to say "Really" and I was like "It is but it isn't"  I can remember feeling the energy play across my skin as  sat there.

I had another experience.. Not sure if it is the same dream or another one, but I was looking over a notebook, it was like something a 5 or 6 year old would have to practice penmanship in. it was just random letters done over and over again, but still not the best hand writing.  As I was looking though it, the things I had looked at where being erased, or disappearing. I got to a point where it was my name being spelled out.  and I looked to the side and saw my fist name 'Drummond my last name.

I looked underneith this, and saw rows and rows of what should have been letters, or words and saw drawn gravestones, engraved on them where runes, what looked like elder futhark ones.  One I remember seeing was the fehu rune.  Among others.

I also remembered another dream, I was in a cabin, a few people were talking upstairs, and I was downstairs, it was on a mountain somewhere, and our cabin was close to anothers, the lights were on, and it was seemingly getting dark outside, and the cabin next to ours had its porch lights on.  There was a dog there, and then I looked out the doors window at the dog it got up and looked at me, I opend the door a bit, and the dog got up... Thats when I noticed it had two heads. and it started to growl and bark at me... I closed the door and noticed I couldn't even hear it with the door closed. 

That is all I remember about my dreams for last night... I wish I could remember more about what the girl looked like, in the second one though.

Attempted something...

Well I made a stab in the dark last night, set up some plans, attempted something.  I'm just making a note here. 

I don't remember any of my dreams from last night, though as I was starting to fall asleep around 11PM my time.  I felt the falling sensation, similar to as if I was sitting up and was falling.  I looked at the alarm cock, and it was 11:11 at that point in time.

Besides that I remember waking up at another point in the night, though I didn't look at the clock for the time.

Woke up around... 8:30 or so, when the school came into session that I live near, due to their morning announcements.

We shall see if there is any other news about this.

Things afoot?

So, I was going to sleep last night, and around 11:47, I was attempting some grounded meditation. As I lie there, I feel something fall, hear it hit my pillow behind me, feel it brush against my hair as it fell.  I could even swear I felt the pillow shift from where it landed.

I got up, and turned on my light.  My pillow looked normal, nothing on it, picked it up, checked behind it, checked underneath it.  Nothing.  The closest thing I can imagine that it was similar to, was an arm, falling from above, brushing against my hair, and hitting my pillow.

Shortly after, I attempted more meditation, and had my left hand move oddly and poked myself...

Just an odd night I guess...

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Strange Dream

So, woke up about 7:30 this morning.  Hearing my parents outside having a discussion about something clearly relating to exhaustion, sleeping, thinking about the long term.

I had a dream sometime between midnight when I went to sleep and when I woke up at that moment.

An angel figure, bronze colored skin, dark hair, black feathered wings, was chasing a fair skinned, with white wings angel figure.  From what I can remember the female figure was running away, while the male was very intent on catching her. For some reason I think that the intent was somehow sexually motivated, but I cannot say for certain.

Other than that I cannot remember setting, or context.

I also had a dream where I was buying milk, and knew that there was more in the house and was buying it anyways? *shrugs*

Dreams about cups?

So, I had a dream that I was in my kitchen, looking for my coffee mug.  It wasn't there, so I asked my dad who was in the kitchen with me, if I had brought it down yesterday.

Apparently I had not.  So I had a few to choose from, some where christmas related, and others were just very small cups, and I was confused about which one I should take, as if someone would be upset with me for choosing incorrectly.

That is all I remember about my dreams.

Earthquake Dream

I had this dream around 1AM

I was dreaming that there was an earthquake, I had to leave work, and was driving on the highway towards home.  I remember dodging these holes that were opening up in front of me, and was doing quite well even though it was frightening.  I ended up hitting a patch where it dropped off and there were these intermittent spikes, with seemingly endless fall between them. My car flipped over, I started to crawl out and noticed said fall, I almost did fall in, but managed to stand on one of the spikes and jump back inside my car.

I got back home some how even though I don't remember how I got out of the car that was on its roof.  When I got home Mr. Close, one of the managers whom I don't care for at work was at my house.  I remember using a laptop and was seemingly talking on IRC, but I cannot remember to whom.

The basement of my house looked like the cooler from work, but was empty, and had the floor collapsed in some places.

Part of me in the dream was looking forward to the experience of trying to survive this.  I remember talking to my father and brother about how we could survive this, and how long it would take to go places, and to find what we needed to survive.

Dreams...

So, regardless of the name of the blog, I can see now there is going to be dreams, more often than not getting posted here.

So, last night, I dreamed that I was driving to some place.  I got there, and went inside a building.  I started to go down a narrow staircase. On the left side of this staircase was a woman, kneeling down in a doorway, feet under her bum, in a pretty typical Japanese pose, which according to google is considered seiza.

She was a cute girl, dressed in all white, though I cannot remember hair color or features.  I continued down the staircase.

This is when my phone rang in reality, at 6:30 in the morning.

I then slept till noon, but don't remember any additional dreams.