I done went and did a thing.

I've always been very interested in Drummond, as Luinbariel is aware.

I decided to try to contact my own guides for once.  I started by lighting my candle, as sad as it probably is for this purpose.  I then started meditating, and waited till I could feel my energy.

I requested from my guides, that I wish for their council, tonight in my dreams, or to work though me tonight if they so wished it.  I said that they could use my candle as a beacon, that it was lit for them to help find me. 

I poured energy into it, while accepting more into myself.  The energy leaving both of my hands were blue, from my left, and green from my right.  The energy entering me was white to yellow in color.

I then worked on my shielding, programming them to let Luinbariel, Drummond, and my guides in.  While keeping those wishing me harm or those with negative influence out.  While doing this I felt something akin to a hand hold my left forearm. Followed by tingling in my left foot and left hand.

I also felt my right bicep twinge when I was setting up a shield to help protect me from scrying attempts from someone that I know has the ability to remote view.

While doing that last one, the candle in front of me flickered a few times, and I saw it play on the inside of my eyelids.

Failed meditation, and a dream

Well, I had planed on attempting a bit of a dream experiment... But I ended up falling asleep while in the middle of the meditation...

Regardless, I did have at least one interesting dream that I remember, after waking up at 8AM, and remembering nothing, I fell asleep for 2 hours and remembered the following.

I was at work.  The entire deli and seafood area was torn apart, and a large number of construction workers were working in the seafood area, replacing items.  I remember feeling out of it, in this dream, foggy and hazy.

I remember that I thought there were customers around, still waiting to be helped, even though there was literally nothing to be sold because the cases were torn apart.  I remember looking at the desks in the seafood area and seeing three of them stacked on top of one another.  I reached up to grab something and spilled a bunch of tiny plastic cups, like the ones the kitchen uses to put dipping sauces in, onto the floor.

I felt like I was stumbling, so I left the area.

I found myself in something resembling a home. There was a fairly large gathering of people.  I am actually not sure how many of them I actually remember knowing.

I do remember one person that stood out from the rest.  A young woman, who was sitting by herself for most of the evening.  I just walked up to her and struck up a conversation.

The details of it have faded, but her demeanor reminded me a lot of Luna from Harry Potter.

I remember her spilling her drink when she was pouring herself something and that she just stared at where it fell on the table, and I wiped it up for her.

There was another dream... but for the life of me I cannot remember it.

Strange Dream

I was watching the television in my bedroom, on the screen was two different people, with a black line dividing them, on the left side was a person discussing a plan to investigate an area., behind him was a map, and it depicted an area covered in forest, with a river dividing the forest in half, this person was dressed in a space suite, and the person on the right was dressed more normally.  And they were discussing the plan, but were in two separate areas.  The one of the left was called Slash numerous times by the one on the right.  I believe that it had to do with searching for a creature similar to Bigfoot.

From there the dream seemed to move forward to a colonial style village.  I'm guessing that this is the place where the creature sightings where.  The style of clothing was very similar to this.

Some of it actually reminded me of the movie The Village.

One of the few scenes I remember is the following.

I remember the group of children discussing their experiences. Eventually they decided to go somewhere and when they got back one of their number was missing.  One of the boys said to the girls that it was one of the adults who was supposed to be watching them. "Maybe it was them, maybe that's why they are not here anymore."

Suddenly a voice from behind them said.  Something like "What about me?" and then "Maybe I should do an Irish Jig."

He walked out to the middle of the floor of the cabin, the light from the oil lamps casting his skin an orange glow. He began to dance.  I remember feeling some abject feeling of horror at seeing him dance.

I was then woken up to get ready for work.

I also remember another scene, i don't remember where it was... maybe between where the 'adult' figure shows up, and the children were talking about him still... I remember them mentioning that maybe the other child had hung himself.

All of the clothing looked homemade, homespun.  It actually reminded me of what you would see Amish people wear today.

Of climing mountians in cars.

I must admit, this was a strange one for me.

I found myself in a car, with who I believe was my father.  We saw a bunch of cars pass, if I had to guess, I would say they were Chevelle SS's.  They passed by us, and then went up a side road heading up a kind of steep incline. My father in the passangerseat looked at a road to our right and then called out suddenly.

"Take this next right" (although in the dream its hard to say if I heard him say this, or heard him think this particular thoughtO

I turned our car onto what turned out to be a dirt path and hit the gas.  I watched as the slow incline started to get higher, soon we were climbing a hill that had to be at least a 45 degree incline.

I hit the gas harder and heard the dirt fly out behind us as we climbed the hill. Suddenly trees loomed ahead of us, and I turned the wheel to the right.  The car continued to climb the impossible hill.

After a bit more climbing more trees loomed ahead, I turned the vehicle to the left this time and saw a wall of trees ahead of us.  The car spun.

I found myself outside of the vehicle, holding on to a rope.  Easing the car down, I attempted to rest the front bumper against a rock jutting from the ground.  As I eased the car there I saw the rock sag forward, the car moved with it, towards a cliff just beyond it. 

I woke up just after this.

I think I also had a dream where I was working with a new person, or maybe it was Dave who has been working another job for the past few months...   Other than that nothing worth mentioning.

Interesting information.

So, I've been reading the book Journey of Souls by Michael Newton.

Its quite the interesting book, describing soul groups, guardians, teachers, among other things.


One of the things that caught my attention was the color scheme as it is described in the book, white being the youngest uneducated souls, up to yellow, dark yellow, light blue, then dark blue/purple.


I notice the color green is interestingly absent from this scheme, which is a healing color, so maybe it has less to do with the experience of the souls and more to do with them if they are a good healer or something similar?


This also reminded me of how in Luinbariel's aura drawings she was quite the purple color.  Just made me chuckle.  I am also reminded of the fact that alot of the descriptions of things in this book are quite alike to Luin's dreams about the matter of souls passing over into the afterlife.


Interesting information, as I said.

Interesting weekend

This weekend has been quite an interesting one for me.

I had a life reading over the phone.  Had some ideas confirmed, had some new ones tossed about, had others that were similar uttered, but that had their differences.

Not sure what to make of it all... But I was told this... My life is about balance, between logic and intuition... I can see this.

If I remember correctly one of the times that I had Luinbariel do a tarot card pull for me, it was all about balance, about finding what was going to work for me, when it came down to logic, and intuition, thinking and feeling.

The other interesting thing that came from that was the idea that my soul group, which is 3 others besides myself, were supposedly monks in a previous life.  Food for thought.

I also did a tarot thread for /x/ tonight, my first one.  Seemed to go really well, and was a fun time... I must remember to try this again.

More meditation imagery.

I was lying down for bed last night.  Relaxing as I normally do, slipping into a meditative state.

I noticed something that looked like intestines, or maybe worms?  Followed by teeth, they looked canine, it went from seeing the outside to seeing it from the inside of the mouth.

Don't remember much from my dreams last night though...

Whatever that was about :-/

Meditation symbols, Multiple dreams. What?

Okay...

So, Before falling asleep I saw an image while meditating.

It was of a tree, stretching up wards looking normal, but the bottom of it, where one would expect to see roots was more like two large roots coming from either end, looking more like fangs, or triangles.

I drew a rough sketch above, of what it was similar to.

I also did some energy work, saw some more baby blue background colors, did some shielding with specific instructions on who or what was allowed in, I specifically said to 'let the dreams come' while doing the sheilding.

I had a dream about being at work, where Rosi asked me to stay til 1:30 instead of staying til 1.  Fun fact, I got out of work early Sunday, 1PM, instead of staying til 2.  *shrugs*

Another dream was me being at home, taking vitamins.  For some reason I couldn't swallow the multivitamin. I kept chocking on it, and spitting it back into my hand, and it was melting quite badly. I attempted to take it one more time, and it ended up breaking in my mouth into three pieces, and one of them lodged into the back of my throat.  I remember spitting out two of them, and feeling the last one lodged there, chocking on it.  Reaching back into my throat I attempted to grab it with my fingers.

I woke up, made a recording of the dream on my DVR, and then went back to sleep. 

The next dream was also quite interesting.  I dreamed that I stole my brothers lighter from his room, and took it to mine.  While I was there I smoked a couple of cigarettes then grabbed something else. It looked like this.

It was tied with red yarn, and was quite dry, smoldered quite a bit, but stayed lit when it was dragged on.

I mention that it is similar to the thing that I saw while meditating, but it wasn't have the pointed edges at the bottom, though the thing in the meditation reminded me more of a tree, where this is a bound bundle...

I was smoking these things in my room, and it was quite dark... I remember seeing the color of the flame from the lighter dancing across the room when I lit one of these things.  The cigarettes didn't have much effect on me, but when I lit the bundle it felt like I had suddenly drank a whole six pack of beer in short order.  Buzzed and or drunk, I remember getting up, and going to my door of my room, and looking out into the hallway, I blew smoke into the hallway and watched it linger.  I looked towards my parents room, and closed the door, noticing the light was on in their room, but only near my mothers computer.

I sat down and relight the bundle, and noticed it seemed to have some sort of leaves on the edges of the sticks, but not down into the base. I took a few more puffs, and then the door to my room opened.  I remember shaking the stick and watching the embers go out, the smoke waft into the air.  I put it behind my bed, and took a leaf from a tree and put it next to it.  The lighter was still in my hand, still lit, even though I had a hard time lighting it the second time and I remember hiding it behind my back, I remember seeing the light playing off my arms, and closing the lid to put it out, but never being burned, or anything catching on fire even though I remember putting it down on my bed while it was still on.

My brother was in my doorway showing me a rope that was seemingly chewed though. it was alternating yellow/orange/black rope.  He went to go show my mother, and her door was now closed and he just walked into her room like he did mine.  I took the lighter downstairs, and it was really dark down there too.  My father was sitting in his recliner in the living room, and said hello.  I went and put the lighter into my brothers room and left it on his tower speaker.

I also barely remember having a dream about an angel like figure being chased down for one reason or another, but also remember believing that it wasn't me that they were chasing... maybe I was watching someone else being chased?

*shrugs*

Of Strange meetings, and contests?

I'm not really sure which dream came first.  I remembered the one about the contest first, and the one about the meetings later.

The contest one is pretty straight forward.  I was in my room on my computer.  With a person that I haven't had any interaction with since probably... high school at the latest.

They were on my computer entering a contest.  I remember at first they entered the website wrong and the were complaining about it, but then reentered it and managed to get to the page.  The website had 7 boxes to complete and I remember one of them was saying about entering a sex vid, no shorter than 2 minutes. She blushed and turned the monitor away while she started answering the questions.  So I started to browse the internet on the other monitor... Though I remember distinctly thinking that it was my computer so that I would probably know anything that she entered anyways.

I remember running across a website and I believe I was distracted by something, and it turned out to be a gif page, and it started with Cris Hanson flying out of nowhere and then sound started to pour out of the speakers.  Even turning them off I could still hear it echoing in my head.

The other dream I remember was pretty strange too.  I was with another person, and I remember that a third woman had asked us to help her with her husband, My female friend left to do something and I remember that her hair was I believe black.  Whereas the woman we were trying to help had blonde hair.  My friend came back after some time, her hair was now dyed blonde, and she seemed pretty freaked out.  Seemingly this guy somehow managed to trick her or persuade her to dye her hair because he liked blondes more.

I remember that the one that needed our help sort of got the answers that she was looking for.

Later there was a larger group sitting at a round table.  A girl, the one with black hair approached me, and she said to me "I'm sorry I haven't been paying much attention to you lately."  She reached out her pointer finger on her left hand, and I remember grasping it with my fingers.  Looking down at her hands I saw that all the fingertips on that hand looked cracked, dry, or bleeding.  I remember putting my arm around her waist and hugging her.

There was also a scene of a three way somewhere in this dream... though it was more of a flash, I believe it had the black haired girl, the blond and someone else in it.  Me? The Blonds husband?

I'm not sure really...

Dreams of Home. Dreams of Luin, possibly. Meditation Visions, Oh My!

So, I had a few dreams last night, after saying that I hadn't been remembering any.

I was at home, seemingly alone, in my eldest brothers room, watching his TV, seemingly Friday night television, he wasn't home, but I believe Teddy, the puppy that my family has recently gotten was with me.  Overall the feeling of the dream was 'dark' but not 'menacing'. I believe that I had to take him out at one point... I mention in a recording that it was weird...

As for hat I did remember upon waking...

I had a dream about having a dream.  In the dream I wrote down a dream that I had about Luin in her attic.  There was a ramp going up and coming from there was leaves blowing down.  From what I could tell I was seeing though her eyes, and she was attempting some sort of ritual.  As she was doing it, the leaves were blowing around her, like a cyclone of some sort. If I had to guess they were comming out of a broken skylight or something similar.

I was writing these details down on a piece of paper using a pencil in the dream that I had.  But it was like remembering a dream within a dream.

Also while I was trying to fall asleep I had a vision of a snow embankment.  Sitting in it was a head. As I watched it, it slowly melted down into the embankment until it disappeared.

In other news... I'm still sick, called my doctor and he wants to continue the medicine I'm on now, and wants me to stay out of work for a few more days, Rosi, my assistant manager isn't going to schedule me until Friday of next week.  Bless her.