Seems like I'm not remembering much in the way of dreams lately.
I remember waking up around 6AM or so, when other people in my house were stirring. Other than that, I woke up about 8:30, I was dreaming that I was looking at a sink of some sort. Someone was explaining how to fix it, and I believe I was using some sort of putty to fill in cracks and such.
*shrugs* I know that there was something else when I woke up at 6, but... for the life of me I cannot remember now.
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
Saturday, November 26, 2011
Road Trips; or: How I got to the overflowing store.
My eldest brother and I were in a car. My father was also in another car, going to the same place. Driving down those same familiar, empty roads. My father, though going to the same town was going to a different place than myself, and it seemed like my brother was just going with me for the ride.
I ended up parking in the same general area as my father, though I am unsure as to where my brother went. My father was talking about something, I think my brother stayed with him, to look at the stores while I approached the larger stone building. I remember that it had a large stone ball sitting next to the stairs.
I walked up the steps and they were closed. It seemed to be a very large store, as they had clothing, food, and lots of other areas. All of them said closed except for one which is what I needed.
I looked at the woman who was working the reception area, and noticed water flowing down the stairs behind her. I'm not sure if I pointed it out or if she noticed it, but I followed her upstairs. Two statues that were next to the stairs came to move, one followed her and she ordered the other one to stay at the foot of the stairs and not let anyone up. I followed her upstairs and found a machine, I believe it was a pump of some sort, spewing water out and it was flowing down the stairs. The water was rapidly rising and flowing down the stairs faster and faster.
I woke up after this point.
I ended up parking in the same general area as my father, though I am unsure as to where my brother went. My father was talking about something, I think my brother stayed with him, to look at the stores while I approached the larger stone building. I remember that it had a large stone ball sitting next to the stairs.
I walked up the steps and they were closed. It seemed to be a very large store, as they had clothing, food, and lots of other areas. All of them said closed except for one which is what I needed.
I looked at the woman who was working the reception area, and noticed water flowing down the stairs behind her. I'm not sure if I pointed it out or if she noticed it, but I followed her upstairs. Two statues that were next to the stairs came to move, one followed her and she ordered the other one to stay at the foot of the stairs and not let anyone up. I followed her upstairs and found a machine, I believe it was a pump of some sort, spewing water out and it was flowing down the stairs. The water was rapidly rising and flowing down the stairs faster and faster.
I woke up after this point.
Thursday, November 24, 2011
So Lazy.
I'm behind in my NaNoWriMo.
I should probably be asleep. I'm waking up in... 3 hours to go shopping. Yay?
Black friday sales, etc. But... Ive been lazy. My brother thinks I need a system to attempt to stay on track, build goals for myself try to keep up with them.
He said today.
"Losers have goals, winners have systems" and apparently it was quote he had heard somewhere else.
I also found this nifty little wallpaper which made me chuckle.
They both made me chuckle, so I figured I would share.
Things I got done today?
I fixed my ubuntu installation. by reinstalling. But I was able to save my files and such... why I didn't do this before now? Lazy? probably.
But yay, one thing done!
I should probably be asleep. I'm waking up in... 3 hours to go shopping. Yay?
Black friday sales, etc. But... Ive been lazy. My brother thinks I need a system to attempt to stay on track, build goals for myself try to keep up with them.
He said today.
"Losers have goals, winners have systems" and apparently it was quote he had heard somewhere else.
I also found this nifty little wallpaper which made me chuckle.
They both made me chuckle, so I figured I would share.
Things I got done today?
I fixed my ubuntu installation. by reinstalling. But I was able to save my files and such... why I didn't do this before now? Lazy? probably.
But yay, one thing done!
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
Dreams about Crystals?
I was spreading asphalt, to make a roadway. I was pulling out rocks and found some amazing crystals. One was an amazing green color with blue tints, and the other one was an amazing purple color. I looked at the person I was with and asked what it was. He responded, "Oh so and so will know" I remember putting them on a table next to the area where we were spreading the asphalt.
My waking mind says that maybe he said Luin, but... I cannot be sure.
My waking mind says that maybe he said Luin, but... I cannot be sure.
Sunday, November 20, 2011
Dreams.
So... I was almost late to work today. Woke up 4AM to my alarm, snoozed until 5, with it going off again and again. Fell back asleep around 5, and since it was an hour past when the alarm was set It didn't go off again.
Ended up having the following dream. Megan S, Meghan F. along with two Asian people were in my car. I was in the back set Meghan F was driving, I believe though one of the larger cities near where I live, A song.. I believe this one came on from my USB drive. I went to change it and the Asian people stopped me.
I was woken up while jamming to that tune by my father.
"Its 5:30, don't you have to be at work?"
So I got dressed ran out the door to work, worked till noon, losing my voice throughout because of calling numbers.
Megan and Meghan both were at work, oddly enough. Megan had me go into her purse and put lemon oil in my water, she says its good for your throat when its sore. Nice of her, if a bit awkward for me. ha.
I then got home after 12:30, sat in the sun for a while with my dog, and parents, came in ate some stew, showered, slept from 2-5:30, ate some dinner and here I am....
Could be worse I guess.
Ended up having the following dream. Megan S, Meghan F. along with two Asian people were in my car. I was in the back set Meghan F was driving, I believe though one of the larger cities near where I live, A song.. I believe this one came on from my USB drive. I went to change it and the Asian people stopped me.
I was woken up while jamming to that tune by my father.
"Its 5:30, don't you have to be at work?"
So I got dressed ran out the door to work, worked till noon, losing my voice throughout because of calling numbers.
Megan and Meghan both were at work, oddly enough. Megan had me go into her purse and put lemon oil in my water, she says its good for your throat when its sore. Nice of her, if a bit awkward for me. ha.
I then got home after 12:30, sat in the sun for a while with my dog, and parents, came in ate some stew, showered, slept from 2-5:30, ate some dinner and here I am....
Could be worse I guess.
Monday, November 14, 2011
Strange dreams
Last night was a strange night.
I attempted for the first time to use a sigil before falling asleep, to loose success since I didn't meditate on it much (heh, I know, lazy prick). The point of which was to meet my guide in my dreams.
I either dreamed, or did wake up at least twice throughout the night, the second time being when everyone else was awake and the sun was starting to come up, probably 6:30 in the morning or so?.
As far as my dreams. I was in a room with a few other people. It was 7 in the morning, the sun was coming up, and I was telling them that I should get to sleep.
Another dream I remember having, granted in no particular order, was getting a text from my manager, saying "Its past 6 o'clock, so its already too late"
I think that was in relation to getting to work on time. Not quite sure though.
The other dream was a bit weirder though.
I was at home, when I heard noise outside, something like a dog barking, except inside my own back yard. I knew that my dog was in the house, and saw her as I went outside. In my yard was 3 other dogs, all golden retrievers. I brought them into my house. My dog has brown eyes, red collar. One of the other dogs had the same red collar, but blue eyes, another had brown eyes like mine, but with a rope like collar with a solid brass ring (almost like a necklace) hanging from their neck. The third I cannot remember.
I remember thinking that the one with the rope looked a little mean, or somehow slightly deformed in the shape of its head.
The one with the blue eyes was the one I ended up spending the most time with.
It was just a strange dream, and a strange night overall.
I attempted for the first time to use a sigil before falling asleep, to loose success since I didn't meditate on it much (heh, I know, lazy prick). The point of which was to meet my guide in my dreams.
I either dreamed, or did wake up at least twice throughout the night, the second time being when everyone else was awake and the sun was starting to come up, probably 6:30 in the morning or so?.
As far as my dreams. I was in a room with a few other people. It was 7 in the morning, the sun was coming up, and I was telling them that I should get to sleep.
Another dream I remember having, granted in no particular order, was getting a text from my manager, saying "Its past 6 o'clock, so its already too late"
I think that was in relation to getting to work on time. Not quite sure though.
The other dream was a bit weirder though.
I was at home, when I heard noise outside, something like a dog barking, except inside my own back yard. I knew that my dog was in the house, and saw her as I went outside. In my yard was 3 other dogs, all golden retrievers. I brought them into my house. My dog has brown eyes, red collar. One of the other dogs had the same red collar, but blue eyes, another had brown eyes like mine, but with a rope like collar with a solid brass ring (almost like a necklace) hanging from their neck. The third I cannot remember.
I remember thinking that the one with the rope looked a little mean, or somehow slightly deformed in the shape of its head.
The one with the blue eyes was the one I ended up spending the most time with.
It was just a strange dream, and a strange night overall.
Saturday, November 12, 2011
Dreamin'
I had a seemingly epic dream last night.
I found myself attempting to get into my place of work at night. The store itself was seemingly darker than it has ever been before. I was with at least 2 friends, and I don't remember why I wanted to get into the store itself. I then heard something moving in the pitch black parking lot behind me.
Turning around I saw a shopping carriage roll past the entrance that I was standing at. Suddenly The 'parking lot' seemed to shift. My car was now parked down a hill next to a large grassy hill. The carriage moved down towards my parked car, and I remember thinking "I hope that doesn't hit my car!"
The carriage seemed to turn sideways and stopped in front of my car without hitting it. I then heard another carriage starting to move. Looking into the darkness of what was once again my works parking lot, I could see nothing. Another shopping cart went flying past, heading towards where my car was parked, suddenly there was another car parked there, I believe it could have been my mothers white car.
I called out into the darkness "Who's there!" No one answered. I heard a noise behind me, and turned around, someone walked out of a doorway, I turned to my friends and we walked down the hill towards the cars. I got into mine, while they get into the other one. My dog came running down the hill and I opened the passenger door for her. Getting into the car myself I started the engine.
The car sounded like shit. It honestly sounded like it was in either the wrong gear or that something was horribly wrong with the transmission. I somehow found myself driving to the mall, while it was still dark out. I managed to get inside and just wandered around. No one bothered me while I was there. I wandered though the empty stores, sometimes seeing nighttime personnel, but otherwise not seeing many people.
I made my way to the exit of the mall and saw a couple of cute girls, I walked up to my car, and theirs was parked right next to mine. Somehow I found myself getting into the back seat of their vehicle, and I looked at the one getting into the passenger seat. "You know, if you wanted to you could get into the back seat with me?" I remember either thinking or saying. I then remember freaking out a bit, wondering if I had said that out loud or to myself.
I think this is when I woke up.
I do have two other 'dream segments'
One was where I was at work, in the receiving area. I believe one of the part time receivers was there, Laura, a women that I knew back in 4th grade or so. I remember I had a pillow, and was spraying it with something, Lysol or febreeze or something similar. Someone then walked into the back room and grabbed it from me, and put their head down on it.
This could have come before the whole 'being outside of work' or something completely unrelated.
I then had another dream I was looking at a system of roots. At the end of each 'branch, was something resembling an eye. These eyes either stropped there or had two child nodes coming out of them, and so on with each resulting node. Something was manipulating these nodes, causing the last nodes to either grow new child nodes, or for one of the adult nodes to absorb the power of the child nodes.
I remember thinking that whoever was manipulating this situation was doing so to make each of these nodes as powerful as possible. I then saw one of these 'trees' roots to move, and to cause the eye to disconnect, it fell and hit somewhere, and exploded. "I think they are doing this to create weapons." I thought.
That was my dreams from last night... *shrugs* In other news Ive been feeling slightly under the weather, headache, stuffy nose, sneezing, couching, phlegm, I feel a bit better now though.
I found myself attempting to get into my place of work at night. The store itself was seemingly darker than it has ever been before. I was with at least 2 friends, and I don't remember why I wanted to get into the store itself. I then heard something moving in the pitch black parking lot behind me.
Turning around I saw a shopping carriage roll past the entrance that I was standing at. Suddenly The 'parking lot' seemed to shift. My car was now parked down a hill next to a large grassy hill. The carriage moved down towards my parked car, and I remember thinking "I hope that doesn't hit my car!"
The carriage seemed to turn sideways and stopped in front of my car without hitting it. I then heard another carriage starting to move. Looking into the darkness of what was once again my works parking lot, I could see nothing. Another shopping cart went flying past, heading towards where my car was parked, suddenly there was another car parked there, I believe it could have been my mothers white car.
I called out into the darkness "Who's there!" No one answered. I heard a noise behind me, and turned around, someone walked out of a doorway, I turned to my friends and we walked down the hill towards the cars. I got into mine, while they get into the other one. My dog came running down the hill and I opened the passenger door for her. Getting into the car myself I started the engine.
The car sounded like shit. It honestly sounded like it was in either the wrong gear or that something was horribly wrong with the transmission. I somehow found myself driving to the mall, while it was still dark out. I managed to get inside and just wandered around. No one bothered me while I was there. I wandered though the empty stores, sometimes seeing nighttime personnel, but otherwise not seeing many people.
I made my way to the exit of the mall and saw a couple of cute girls, I walked up to my car, and theirs was parked right next to mine. Somehow I found myself getting into the back seat of their vehicle, and I looked at the one getting into the passenger seat. "You know, if you wanted to you could get into the back seat with me?" I remember either thinking or saying. I then remember freaking out a bit, wondering if I had said that out loud or to myself.
I think this is when I woke up.
I do have two other 'dream segments'
One was where I was at work, in the receiving area. I believe one of the part time receivers was there, Laura, a women that I knew back in 4th grade or so. I remember I had a pillow, and was spraying it with something, Lysol or febreeze or something similar. Someone then walked into the back room and grabbed it from me, and put their head down on it.
This could have come before the whole 'being outside of work' or something completely unrelated.
I then had another dream I was looking at a system of roots. At the end of each 'branch, was something resembling an eye. These eyes either stropped there or had two child nodes coming out of them, and so on with each resulting node. Something was manipulating these nodes, causing the last nodes to either grow new child nodes, or for one of the adult nodes to absorb the power of the child nodes.
I remember thinking that whoever was manipulating this situation was doing so to make each of these nodes as powerful as possible. I then saw one of these 'trees' roots to move, and to cause the eye to disconnect, it fell and hit somewhere, and exploded. "I think they are doing this to create weapons." I thought.
That was my dreams from last night... *shrugs* In other news Ive been feeling slightly under the weather, headache, stuffy nose, sneezing, couching, phlegm, I feel a bit better now though.
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
taking a bit of time...
Ive been thinking that maybe Ive been doing a bit too much tarot lately.
In other news, I'm up to 14K words in nanowrimo... I feel pretty good about that...
Ive been neglecting to do things like meditate though, at least serious meditation. Maybe tonight... though I have work at 6:30 in the morning tomorrow, and then 7 on Friday.
In other news, I'm up to 14K words in nanowrimo... I feel pretty good about that...
Ive been neglecting to do things like meditate though, at least serious meditation. Maybe tonight... though I have work at 6:30 in the morning tomorrow, and then 7 on Friday.
Monday, November 7, 2011
Tarot
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| Problem | Solution |
So, The Sun, again, as my problem.
Book meaning? "Material happiness, success, attainment. A good marriage. Happy reunions. Achievements in the arts, science, and agriculture. Studies completed; liberation. Pleasure in the simple life"
My Solution? The Hierophant.
Book meaning? "Preference for the outer forms of religion, the ritual, the creed, the ceremony. The importance of social approval; the need to conform to society."
[22:02:42] <@Luinbariel> I think the Heirophant is a teacher, one whom you draw a lot of knowledge from in many ways including spiritual knowledge. The act of being under such a person's wing, that kind of thing.
Is what Luin had said. Which would make more sense in this spread. Basically what is being said is that I'm enjoying the material, but I should be more focused on the immaterial, on those things that cannot be counted, and focused upon. It makes sense, and slightly confirms a few thoughts I've had. "I should be meditating more" and all of that.
I guess the sun could also be seen as a card that is saying "Look at me, I'm bright enough to shine on my own. I can do what I want... Hence the sunflowers looking towards the child and not at the sun.
That needs more thought.
Tarot
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| Problem | Solution |
So, the ace of pentacles... Luin I think would say that it is again potential, energy without a place to go, and so far Ive been agreeing with her... that it makes sense. The book says "the beginning of wealth and material gain. Gold, prosperity, combined with pleasure and beauty."
EDIT (11/7/11 10:15AM): I can see why Luin says the aces are all about potential now. All of those cards are about 'the beginnings' but in with their particular relems. Wealth, Spirit, etc... Interesting to finally notice that.
The 4 of wands means " Perfected work; rest after labor, Peace, prosperity, harmony. Romance, a coming marriage"
Hmm... Lol "romance' I had someone tell me that someone might like me, and that it was because they need a daddy for their baby...
Can I walk away shaking my head now please? Oh, and I also had Amy the new full timer call me her boyfriend today... she was kidding (or at least I know she has an ex husband, and a boyfriend atm...) At least I hope so? Anywho sleep time.
Saturday, November 5, 2011
half assed tarot reading
Problem, page of cups
Soltuion 9 of penticales
problem: begining of feeling for the self, but fear of feeling too good about ones self, narcissism, fear of it, etc...
Solution: push past the fear
Curiosity of luin, <3
Soltuion 9 of penticales
problem: begining of feeling for the self, but fear of feeling too good about ones self, narcissism, fear of it, etc...
Solution: push past the fear
Curiosity of luin, <3
Tarot
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| Problem | Solution, reveresd |
The Ten of pentacles means"riches, inheritances. Attention to family matters, interest in one's ancestral tree. A problem concerning a will or pension. May refer to the acquiring of a house or business property."
Well considering what I'm dealing with in reality its probably referring to the 'attention to family matters' portion.
The king, reversed means "Stupidity. Perverse use of talents. Thriftless. Easy to bribe. Vice. caution against associationw ith gamblers and speculators. If crossed he could be a dangerous man."
Hmmm... I got nothin' on this one... I need sleep
Friday, November 4, 2011
One step...
Finally getting closer to maybe changing things in my life a bit.
On Luin's urging I finally made the phone call to my friend Keith, about the job offer he had for me... a bit late, but better than nothing I guess. Hes going to talk to the temp agency that is hiring for the company, to see if they are willing to negotiate their starting wage up to where I am now, 10.50 an hour.
I don't think I will want to quit my part time job even if I get it, even if I just work a few nights a week... I dunno I guess that's me being nostalgic or something. Hes going to call me Monday he says.
Edit: I know I should work on getting a better job, and that it probably isn't the best job for me... but... I think its time for a change, and I should give this a shot... *shrugs*
On Luin's urging I finally made the phone call to my friend Keith, about the job offer he had for me... a bit late, but better than nothing I guess. Hes going to talk to the temp agency that is hiring for the company, to see if they are willing to negotiate their starting wage up to where I am now, 10.50 an hour.
I don't think I will want to quit my part time job even if I get it, even if I just work a few nights a week... I dunno I guess that's me being nostalgic or something. Hes going to call me Monday he says.
Edit: I know I should work on getting a better job, and that it probably isn't the best job for me... but... I think its time for a change, and I should give this a shot... *shrugs*
Been awhile...
Wow... its been a while since I updated this... Lets see, Saturday night I lost power, as did my work, I stayed late there... Sunday I had to be up early to drive though a snowstorm to get back to work, stayed there for 6 hours, and then I was on a mini-vacation from monday though friday... so I have one day off left!
Been busy though...
So, onto tarot, which Ive been negelecting...
Problem - Solution pull as I have been doing.
The card Strength, reversed means "Domination of the material. Discord, lack of moral force, fear of the unknown in ourselves, abuse of power." According to the book. The first thing that came into my head when I looked at this card though was "lack of strength" or basicly Ive been too lax, and too weak, in my own strength of character. Ive been doing what others want and that maybe just maybe Ive been letting them get things their way for too long.
Lets see what the book has to say about the two of pentacles... "Te ability to juggle two situations at one time. Lightheartedness. gaiety. Recreation. Harmony in the midst of change. New projects may be difficult to launch. News and messages in writing. A nature industrious yet unreliable, elated and then melancholic"
Hmm, so the second card is saying to basicly "take it all in stride, juggle your problems, and hope that they will sort them out?" Maybe I'm reading these incorrectly. but part of it is just saying "ride the waves" but maybe the first card is just indicating that these problems exist, but that they will somewhat work themselves out without causing too much upheival...
I'm tired. Time for sleep!
Oh, Im behind in my NaNoWriMo... but I'm trying to keep up!
Been busy though...
So, onto tarot, which Ive been negelecting...
Problem - Solution pull as I have been doing.
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| Problem, reversed | Solution |
The card Strength, reversed means "Domination of the material. Discord, lack of moral force, fear of the unknown in ourselves, abuse of power." According to the book. The first thing that came into my head when I looked at this card though was "lack of strength" or basicly Ive been too lax, and too weak, in my own strength of character. Ive been doing what others want and that maybe just maybe Ive been letting them get things their way for too long.
Lets see what the book has to say about the two of pentacles... "Te ability to juggle two situations at one time. Lightheartedness. gaiety. Recreation. Harmony in the midst of change. New projects may be difficult to launch. News and messages in writing. A nature industrious yet unreliable, elated and then melancholic"
Hmm, so the second card is saying to basicly "take it all in stride, juggle your problems, and hope that they will sort them out?" Maybe I'm reading these incorrectly. but part of it is just saying "ride the waves" but maybe the first card is just indicating that these problems exist, but that they will somewhat work themselves out without causing too much upheival...
I'm tired. Time for sleep!
Oh, Im behind in my NaNoWriMo... but I'm trying to keep up!
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
NaNoWriMo
Well, after alot of hemming and hawing and such, I finally decided to participate in National Novel Writing Month... fun fun.
That along with a few other things that have come up will make this month pretty busy, but it should be fun... I need to work on meditation more, I need to do more work with energy manipulation too. I just need to *do* more I guess... Ive been lax... ah well.
I should do a tarot pull but its late... and Ive written close to 1600 words tonight so... Ill pick it up again tomorrow maybe?
That along with a few other things that have come up will make this month pretty busy, but it should be fun... I need to work on meditation more, I need to do more work with energy manipulation too. I just need to *do* more I guess... Ive been lax... ah well.
I should do a tarot pull but its late... and Ive written close to 1600 words tonight so... Ill pick it up again tomorrow maybe?
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