Ranting

I guess I had a few options for this rant... Facebook, here, a chat-room with semi-sympathetic ears... or a word document... Six one way half dozen the other I suppose.

I am starting to hate being talked down to like some semi-functional human.  Like the little retarded kid who isn't going to realize that as soon as your done talking to him your going to turn around and bad mouth them behind their backs.

I don't even know why I am bothering to write any of this down at all.  I have always let the injustices slide off my back before, why should this be any different...  For fucks sake its not like anyone reads this anyways, except for Luin, who I as probably one of my best friends at the moment....  Lets see... I can count maybe... 2 people I am currently working with as something resembling friends, meaning I can have a conversation with them and not think that they are going to turn around and laugh about it behind my back.  Can I honestly even consider them friends?  I see them at work, sometimes talk with them in the parking lot after the fact...

Something is bound to break at some point... Goodness knows what... Its not like its anything new to me; I went though school under the same stressors and came though that intact.

My oldest boss, the full timer that got transferred to her store, those people I trusted, whom I felt that I could have a meaningful conversation with.

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Enough of that I guess... It seems like all indicators are pointing at me needing to let something change... I have heard from 3, or maybe its 5 now, people that I should consider asking for full time at the place I am working at now.  All's I can think about is that I already don't care for my job now...

But really when I think about it... I should have asked Meghan about her father when I saw her Saturday night.  My current manager said that he works for our company as an IT professional at corporate. I need to call Keith, talk to him.  He offered to put my name in for consideration for the job that he is getting promoted from, where he was making 9 dollars an hour... but that would be a 1.50 an hour paycut, even if I worked full time there, I would still be taking a hit on the money end of things...

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Unrelated note, Tammy, Allissa, and possibly Megan will be joining me for the meeting/video showing of Paratom, from the last post... should be interesting considering Megan is one of the few people who talks to me like a human being and not like I'm a fucking retard... Unlike most of the people my age or younger who I work with... Tammy and Allissa being older I guess I just don't get the vibe... quite as much.  Maybe I'm just getting more and more cynical.